february 2019 gratitude journal

Feb 28, 2019



here are a few things i'm grateful for this month:


☽ more sunny + blue sky days that graced us this month and gave us a break from the rain + gloomy skies
☽ full moon in virgo (my sun sign) vibes + blessings
☽ a new halsey song (11 minutes ft. yungblud)
☽ the blessing of having a couple of full days off to rest + spend time with the fam, do errands, read and see my friends + their kiddos
☽ my health navigators help in getting me a new health insurance plan
☽ grassroots, orgs + constituents who are utilizing resources and time to tell their moc's to reject the alleged 'national emergency' declaration



♥ what are some things you are grateful for? ♥

january 2019 gratitude journal

Jan 31, 2019




happy 2019! it's hard to believe the first month of 2019 has already gone and passed. while we're only a month in the new year, there's still plenty to be grateful for.


here are a few things i'm grateful for this month:


☽ making it to 2019
☽ having understanding, fun, caring + flexible managers
☽ new friends
☽ free parking sunday's in downtown + midtown
☽ minimalism + mindful living
☽ women
☽ intersectionality
☽ working with the coolest, funniest + amazing coworkers that makes work fly by and more bearable
☽ mlk. and loretta scott king. bernice king. and all those who fought for civil rights.
☽ family for supporting me, helping me out + just being there for me
☽ having multiple jobs that helps provide for me to pay my bills + to save for the future
☽ managers + coworkers taking their time to mentor me at different stations at work
☽ the realization that moved me to set a goal this year to go after all i want + deserve, and to leave the toxic people/friendships behind

november 2018 gratitude journal + intentions for december

Nov 30, 2018




november has been quite eventful -- both personally and out there all over the world.


here's a few things i'm grateful for this month:


☽ conscious and moral voters investing time and energy in the 2018 midterm elections
☽ progressive orgs/groups putting in the work to inform constituents about current issues happening on capital hill, progressive candidate endorsements + campaigns; and the volunteers who dedicated their time and energy to help get out the vote
☽ stunning fall sunrises
☽ being blessed with a new job
☽ emergency responders and volunteers that are fighting the california wildfires
☽ community coming together for the camp fire wildfire victims
☽ giving tuesday, and those who partake in the generous global day of giving
☽ cooler weather
☽ having the right to vote
☽ empathy
☽ passionate + empathetic people who care about justice, equality + the well-being of others
☽ my little brother making honor roll
☽ people from all walks of life (i.e. religions, ethnicities, etc) coming together to mourn the jewish victims from the pittsburgh synagogue shooting, and protecting the jewish folks mourning at the vigil. restores a bit of faith in humanity in the climate seeped in hate
☽ people, organizations, charities + businesses donating/participating in giving tuesday
☽ earning + passing my very first food handlers certificate



intentions for december:

✰ stop blaming planet retrogrades (*ahem* mercury retrograde) + moons for every bad/negative thing that happens
✰ remember the lessons learned at the wellness retreats -- namely about being non-reactionary so quickly + self care
✰ give back to those in need. remember giving doesn't have to only happen on giving tuesday
✰ make new friends at new job
✰ rid of all the toxic people in my life once and for all
✰ learn as much as i can + not be too overwhelmed by everything

{Story Diary} Girls of Paper and Fire by Natasha Ngan

Nov 6, 2018

I received an advanced review copy in exchange for an honest review, however it does not influence my review. Quotes are taken from an unedited advanced review copy and is subject to change in the final copy. Thanks, Little Brown & Co./Jimmy Patterson Books for the review copy!


girls of paper and fire natasha ngan f/f sapphic repGirls of Paper and Fire by Natasha Ngan
Young Adult Fantasy, Asian-coded, LGBTQ+
November 6, 2018 from Jimmy Patterson Books/Little Brown


Each year, eight beautiful girls are chosen as Paper Girls to serve the king. It's the highest honor they could hope for...and the most demeaning. This year, there's a ninth. And instead of paper, she's made of fire.

In this richly developed fantasy, Lei is a member of the Paper caste, the lowest and most persecuted class of people in Ikhara. She lives in a remote village with her father, where the decade-old trauma of watching her mother snatched by royal guards for an unknown fate still haunts her. Now, the guards are back and this time it's Lei they're after -- the girl with the golden eyes whose rumored beauty has piqued the king's interest.

Over weeks of training in the opulent but oppressive palace, Lei and eight other girls learns the skills and charm that befit a king's consort. There, she does the unthinkable -- she falls in love. Her forbidden romance becomes enmeshed with an explosive plot that threatens her world's entire way of life. Lei, still the wide-eyed country girl at heart, must decide how far she's willing to go for justice and revenge.

Castes


➤ Paper


        ➣ Fully human, unadorned with any animal-demon features and incapable of demon abilities

        ➣ The lowest and most oppressed class

➤ Steele


        ➣ Humans endowed with partial animal-demon qualities, both in physicality and abilities

➤ Moon


        ➣ Fully demon, with whole animal-demon features such as horns, wings or fur on a humanoid form and complete demon capabilities

Rep


☀ Asians in fantasy
☀ #ownvoices
☀ f/f romance
☀ Asian-coded fantasy
☀ Queer MC + LI

Content/Trigger Warnings


➤ Violence
➤ Graphic animal death
➤ Sexual Assault
➤ Abuse
➤ Rape







"The fear might be strong.
But my hatred is stronger."


--Natasha Ngan, Girls of Paper and Fire



"It doesn't matter how beautiful the cage is. It's still a prison."

--Natasha Ngan, Girls of Paper and Fire



"When the world denies your choices, you make your own."

--Natasha Ngan, Girls of Paper and Fire



"I don't want an easy life. I want a meaningful one."

--Natasha Ngan, Girls of Paper and Fire



"We might be Paper Girls, easily torn and written upon. The very title we're given suggests that we are blank, waiting to be filled. But what the Demon King and his court do not understand is that paper is flammable. And there is a fire catching among us."

--Natasha Ngan, Girls of Paper and Fire



"Her kisses heal the parts of me that the king broke. They tell me: You are strong, Lei. You are beautiful. You are mine. And, always, most important: You are yours."

--Natasha Ngan, Girls of Paper and Fire

**Quotes are taken from an uncorrected advanced review copy and is subject to change in the final copy**


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Natasha Ngan is a writer and yoga teacher. She grew up between Malaysia, where the Chinese side of her family is from, and the UK. This multicultural upbringing continues to influence her writing, and she is passionate about bringing diverse stories to teens. Natasha studied Geography at the University of Cambridge before working as a social media consultant and fashion blogger.

She recently moved to Paris, where she likes to imagine she drifts stylishly from brasserie to brasserie, notepad in one hand, wineglass in the other. In reality, she spends most of her time getting lost on the metro and confusing locals with her French. She is represented by Taylor Haggerty at Root Literary. Her YA novels THE ELITES and THE MEMORY KEEPERS are out now from Hot Key Books, and GIRLS OF PAPER AND FIRE will be published in October 2018 by Jimmy Patterson/Little Brown (US) and Hodder & Stoughton (UK). Head on over to the Books page for more info!

Natasha is also co-owner of fashion, travel and lifestyle blog Girl in the Lens.





october 2018 | a look back

Oct 31, 2018

[aesthetic]


highlights


  • early absentee 2018 ballots came in the mail this month for the 2018 midterms! after careful research and consideration, it's been filled out and awaiting until it's time to drop them off.
  • i got back into listening to podcasts again and discovered more great ones worth listening to.
  • after 3 weeks of not being able to eat certain foods due to dental extraction and temporary crowns, i finally got permanent crowns and can eat whatever i want again. hello pizza, i've missed you.
  • dedicated time and energy to join thelastweekend.org + people power in phone/text banking, postcard writing + mailing, and canvassing with fellow volunteers in my community for progressive candidates to get out the vote for the midterms.


lowlights


  • a dear friend of mine got bad health news but i'm praying and supporting her to pull through.
  • as if my bank account didn't take a hit enough after my dentist bills last month, my car took even more for maintenance and repairs. whoever said owning cars were fun, lied! 
  • job rejections/non-follow ups
  • flakey friends
  • dealing with health insurance issues
  • halloween was lackluster this year but at least i had a job interview
  • my mental health was at a low this month

what i read


well-read black girl // glory edim
the minimalist home // joshua becker
a blade so black // l. l. mckinney
in the vanisher's palace // aliette de bodard
blanca & roja // anna-marie mclemore
odd one out // nic stone
a very large expanse of sea // tahera mafi
the boneless mercies // april genevieve tucholkk
what if it's us // becky albertalli x adam silvera
frugal living guide for the minimalism lifestyle // 
minimalist living // genevieve parker hill
frugal: the art of frugal simplicity // jessica jacobs
a little bit of mindfulness //
mind detox // 
betraying big brother // leta hong ficher
pinay: culture bearers of the filipino diaspora //

what i listened to


without me// halsey
taki taki // dj snake x ozuna x cardi b x selena gomez
bad guy // niykee heaton
1999 // charli xcx x troye sivan
focus // saweetie
sweet but psycho // ava max


(full playlist on my october playlist post)
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